The PC’s been coming on intermittently all weekend and takes anywhere from five minutes to two hours to crash, so I don’t know how much time I have. A hastily purchased laptop should be here on Tuesday.
Sleep has also been coming intermittently. I wake up every 45 minutes and pee no less than five times a night. Sometimes I just lay awake for no reason. This morning, I was up at 5 a.m. and will probably crash again around noon. But it’s nice not to have that panicky feeling when you know you’ve only slept for three hours and your day is going to suck ass.
I’ve been swimming a lot and taking shorter walks around the neighborhood. I can still walk a few miles, but then I have to take a two-hour nap.
I’ve been having very mild and irregular cramping and back pain all week, but I haven’t experienced any of the other signs of impending labor (I’ll let you guess what those are). I also haven’t gained any more weight and pretty much look the same way I did a week ago. I’m not going to say anything cliche like, “It’s finally dawning on me that I’m going to have a baby!” But…fuck. I’m supposed to have a baby next Thursday. If I think about that too much, I freak out.
Instead of practicing my breathing exercises and doing squats and kegels and all that stuff a responsible person would be doing 11 days before her due date, I’ve been working on labor playlists. They include everything from Howlin’ Wolf to Faith No More. I have no idea what kind of “place” I’m going to be in while I’m pushing out my baby friend, so I’m trying to cover all my bases. Inevitably, upon the first contraction, I’ll forget that music even exists and it will remain untouched in my overnight bag while the melodic sounds of my screams echo down the hallway of the maternity ward.
But it’s kind of nice knowing all I really have to do right now is sit around and wait. I can’t tell you how relieved I am that I didn’t go into labor at work or start having contractions during my 20 mile commute in rush hour traffic. I am five minutes from a very dope and swanky hospital full of doctors and surgeons and anesthesiologists and I intend to keep it that way.