Last week was kinda rough! I was coming back from an illness, plus we traveled so I didn’t get a lot of running in and the runs I did do were lackluster. Oh, and the weather was godawful.
Monday: Weights + treadmill 2 @ 9:28 Tuesday: 4 @ 10:11. This run was supposed to be longer and faster but it was unbearably hot outside and I quit early. Wednesday: OFF. We traveled a couple of hours north to Monticello. Indiana where there’s a small lake and water/amusement park. We stayed in a darling cottage on the water and sat on the deck every night after the kids went to bed. The amusement and water park is small, but inexpensive and close to home and the kids had a blast. Also because we went during the week, there were NO LINES. Thursday: 4 @ 9:50. Again, hot as balls with the added fun of a hangover. Friday: OFF Saturday: 10 @ 10:20. Back home and another painful run in 80 degree heat and humidity. I sweat gallons and enjoyed myself very little. Sunday: OFF
Race week training/I never know quite how to taper edition. I took off Wednesday because I had some other shit going on and then probably hammered my legs a little more than necessary later in the week. I think one of the reasons I keep falling apart at races is that I have unrealistic expectations. I’m not as strong or as fast as I think I am so I run harder than I should during the taper.
Monday: weights + I SWAM LAPS OMG. 1000 yards, which I know isn’t much for a real swimmer but it’s kind of a lot for someone who hasn’t done a single lap in at least two years. I can’t even remember the last time I was in the lap pool. (But the last time I blogged about it, I only had one child!)
I didn’t hate it!
What I did hate was stepping out of the gym shower (which by the way, runs at a trickle and has a single temperature setting: scalding hot) to find that my towel had fallen off the hook and was now sopping up public shower floor water. No more towels in the locker room, so I had to use the one small dry corner of my towel to try to dry myself, wondering what kinds of shower filth and foot fungus I had exposed to my naked body.
Tuesday: 8 @ 9:13. Wednesday: Off. Thursday: weights + treadmill 3 @ 9:05. Wind and rain and just…nah. Friday: Some halfass ab/leg stuff + 2 @ 9:52. Slight overkill? I wanted to do a shakeout before my race but it made me feel tired and I probably should have skipped it. Saturday: Indy Miler Training Series 10 Sunday: REST
Total: 23 miles
Question: Does showering at the gym skeeve you out? I do it only when absolutely necessary, and never without flip flops. I have no reason to believe my gym is swarming with disease but there’s just something gross about puddles of water when it’s not from you. Like, I always imagine it’s all pee.
I am still doing the burpee thing on my weightlifting days. They are not feeling any easier yet.
My knee is no longer bothering me, so that’s good.
Hi again. It was another week of mostly goddamnitwhatthefuck, but I’m plugging away. I read some good stuff on International Women’s Day and planned to write a whole blog post about it but since I suck at blogging, I never got around to it. I included some links in this post though.
Indiana woman-owned brewery, Scarlet Lane. It was my only purchase on International Women’s Day.
Who I contacted
I contacted my reps to oppose The REINS Act. This is the one that has the potential to bring the regulatory process to a screeching halt. It “radically repositions Congress, the most political branch of government, as the place to make the ultimate decisions that involve detailed technical matters.”
Locally, this Crown Hill deforestation shit came to a head. Construction had started and things appeared pretty bleak, but a 25th hour letter from Indianapolis Mayor Joe Hogsett seemed promising. I contacted the VA director, David Shulkin and asked him to listen to the mayor and consider an alternative location that would not require destroying the inner city’s last virgin forest, and I contacted Indiana’s (D) senator and asked him to do as the mayor has done and speak up on behalf on Crown Hill Forest. THEN, a civil disobedience success! People put their bodies in front of the trees! I wish I had been there. I know we shouldn’t get too excited, but it appears the VA is at least open to a dialogue with the public. It’s a relief to feel my actions perhaps made an impact.
I contacted my Indiana reps to oppose a state pre-k funding bill. What? I’ll explain. This legislation proposes expansion of a pre-k pilot program, which sounds great and I would be a huge supporter of free, public preschool, but there’s some voucher language tied into it that I don’t like. From an article in one of our weekly papers: “Indiana needs to expand pre-school but not with an expensive link to guarantee K-12 private school vouchers,” Smith [Rep. Vernon Smith, D-Gary] said. “Any pre-K student, including public pre-K students, get a voucher for life. This would be the biggest expansion of voucher eligibility since 2013.” And that sets off all kinds of red flags in my head.
I contacted my reps to oppose the AHCA, because obviously. If you’re on Obamacare, consider telling the White House about your experiences. They’re looking for negative stories, so let’s make sure they also hear from all the people the ACA has helped.
How could the immigration situation possibly get any worse, you ask? Here’s how. Administration considering separating women and children at the border.
Small Victories, issue 10. The Salvadoran woman with the brain tumor, Sara Beltran Hernandez, who was being held in federal detention? She was released and is receiving treatment! That one should go under big victories.
And some special stuff for International Women’s Day
Strikes aren’t for the privileged. I had a change of heart about this, honestly. I read an article early last week about the privilege of the women’s strike and while I do think privilege and white feminism needs to be called out whenever possible, there are some very good points here; namely, that striking isn’t rooted in privilege and privilege shouldn’t keep us from striking.
Well, this won’t take long: I ran 0 miles and did 0 workouts last week. I was sick for the better part of the week and then decided to go ahead and blow off the weekend too.
So I picked the worst possible day to get my shit together and start up again. I had the time change, the previous week off AND my period working against me; a trifecta of fuckery. I’d pay so much money (if I had any) to be able to crawl back in bed right now.
I may space these posts out a bit more, for my own well-being. They require a lot more thought –and thoughtfulness– than my weekly running posts and there’s just no way I’m gonna be able to keep up consistent blog posting for any meaningful period of time. I’ll try for every 1.5 to two weeks and see how that goes.
Who I supported
I made a small donation to #IllGoWithYou, a movement offering allyship and assistance to people who are transgender or gender-nonconforming. The IGWY button is intended to advertise allyship in public places. When asked, allies go into bathrooms and other spaces with people who may be afraid or concerned about their safety– and not just transgender individuals, but also a variety of people whose presentation of their gender may not fit the narrow archetypes of binary gender. You can order buttons for yourself, or you can make a donation for buttons to be passed along to an organization at no cost to them. I have a button on my bag and a couple extras so I can offer them to people who ask. Also, my friend is the button-maker. 🙂
My local breweries.
Who I contacted
I called my reps again to oppose Pruitt for the EPA and we all know how that turned out. This one hurts. When I think about the world my kids are going to inherit, I want to cry.
I learned from Teen Vogue that the White House has a comment line again! So I called it and used the script provided in the weekly action checklist to ask for an environmental study on the impact of the DAPL pipeline under Lake Oahe. Our latest atrocity against native people ended with the water protectors setting fire to the Oceti Sakowin camp. I think it’s sort of fitting and poetic that they set it aflame to avoid watching it be destroyed.
I also signed the White House petition demanding DJT release his tax returns. (Not that I think it’ll do any good.)
I made repeated calls and emails to the DOJ, DOE and the White House and asked them to continue to enforce Title IX protections for transgender students, again to no avail. This is another really fucked up loss, you guys. It’s a really shitty, spiteful move that will allow states and schools to decide whether or not they want to enforce (or ignore) measures designed to protect vulnerable students. Trans kids will be harmed because of this and it makes me unspeakably sad and angry.
What I read
When Things Go Missing. Mostly unrelated to the Resistance, but it’s a really breathtaking piece about grief and loss.
If your anti-Trump movement is not anti-colonial, you’re wasting your time and ours. “Many of you take issue with Trump, but are absolutely fine with the white supremacist settler colonial system that you and your ancestors have profited from for centuries. You have no real qualms about racism or misogyny, you just don’t want to be reminded of your investments by a loud and overt bastard. Your rallying cry is “make America subtly racist again”. You would give anything in the world to trade Trump for Hillary Clinton or Obama. When the Obama administration’s drone strikes and bombings have caused the very war-torn conditions that refugees are fleeing from. You couple discontent with the Trump administration with a strange nationalist pride. You hold signs that say “this is not us” or “we are better than this”. But Trump is as American as it gets and everyone knows it.”
The leakers who exposed Gen. Flynn’s lie committed serious–and wholly justified– felonies. “It’s hard to put into words how strange it is to watch the very same people — from both parties, across the ideological spectrum — who called for the heads of Edward Snowden, Chelsea Manning, Tom Drake, and so many other Obama-era leakers today heap praise on those who leaked the highly sensitive, classified SIGINT information that brought down Gen. Flynn.”
What we’ll tolerate, and what we won’t. Don’t get me wrong, Milo Y is a human shit stain, and an opportunistic one at that. But it’s interesting and revealing how the right turned on him after probably the only authentic and insightful thing he’s ever said (that queer relationships often involve age and power disparities). I’d be tickled at the idea of Milo experiencing even a fraction of the abuse he’s dealt out to others over the years, except that it came at too high a cost. The right used him to reinforce their position that gay men are perverts, which will only serve to further marginalize and abuse LGBTQ people.
And I watched The Talk: Race In America on PBS. I want to try as much as I can to help amplify the voices of the families who have experienced tragedy at the hands of those sworn to protect them.
What I did
Well, I was really excited about going to an angry town hall meeting, but I…totally forgot to go. It was yesterday evening at 6, and I thought about it as recently as yesterday afternoon but it wasn’t until after dinner when we were putting the kids in the bath that it occurred to me I’d forgotten to go. Ah, well. It was rumored that our district’s rep had not even responded to the invite so it might have just been a bunch of angry people (or worse, rabid trump supporters) showing up to yell at each other.
This week I finally remembered I should also be keeping track of the good things and the small victories instead of just the colossally depressing things and the crushing defeats. Here are some of them.
Hell of a week, huh guys? I was trying to get this out on Sunday or Monday and I let it get away from me. It just wasn’t that fun to write. It’s discouraging when there’s a new disaster seemingly every few days and then get a dozen canned responses from your Republican Senator basically saying nah.
Who I supported
I kinda hit my limit on donations this month (see my other subversiveposts) so I’m taking some time off from donating money and I’m trying to focus more on the other action areas. I’m still loosely following the weekly action checklist.
Who I contacted
My reps, to oppose Betsy DeVos (strike one), Jeff Sessions (strike two) and Neil Gorsuch (strike three). What a downer.
My reps, regarding Steve Bannon’s role on the National Security Council. I really don’t know if this will do any good but I couldn’t not do something.
I wrote Mitch McConnell and I told him I was disappointed by his treatment of Elizabeth Warren and that it was not too late for him to start doing the right thing (and a whole bunch of other shit I know he won’t even read).
I also wrote Elizabeth Warren a long, weepy email and maybe told her I loved her.
What I did
I read The Lorax with my kids and we made post cards about climate change to send to the White House. I knoooooow DJT and the Republicans will not change their position on climate change just because they get a bunch of postcards from children, but I do think it’s a very good way to include my kids in subversive shit in a way that’s age-appropriate and fun. We talked about leaving things in good shape so that other people can use them too. And I try to talk about conservation and environmentalism in a way that doesn’t terrify them.
Across the country, there were rallies in support of Planned Parenthood and I’d planned to attend the one in Indy but honestly, it was a gorgeous day and my kids wanted to go to the park and I decided it was more important to go to the park.
I know I made the right call.
What I read
What liberals don’t get about free speech in the age of Trump. “More than anything our First Amendment exists to protect the rights of the ordinary person to criticize those in power without fear of reprisal from the state. Yet instead we debate the right of an already rich man to use his exalted platform to take away the speech rights of others.”
Forget #fitspo: Why real wellness is more important than ever. “We need to begin prioritizing the wellness of our minds before we hang our worth up on our bodies. Obviously, health is important (hello: we need vitamins and minerals and food to fuel us), but when we talk about “wellness” we need to decide once and for all that it applies to all avenues of existence — from the internet to our workplace to our relationships to how our hearts feel when we run for the elevator.”
Ordinary Americans carried out inhumane acts for Trump. This one was chilling. “…a reminder that authoritarians have no trouble finding the people they need to carry out their acts of cruelty. They do not need special monsters; they can issue orders to otherwise unexceptional people who will carry them out dutifully.”
On Being Good. From The Belle Jar blog! If you’re not following her, you really should. “It took me a long time to realize that what’s sold to children as goodness is really more like passivity. It’s obedience. It’s silence. It’s never questioning authority. It’s learning facts by rote and then regurgitating them. It’s being easily governable. Easily controlled.”
Self-care. A new section I’d like to include in my weekly posts (refer to the piece on wellness linked above!). As I’ve said before, I don’t want to let myself be consumed by all the bad news, so I’m including a few special things I did for me (and my family) each week.
I had coffee with some friends.
I went running. (I know I know, I always go running, but I went on a bonus run Sunday with a friend and it felt like a luxury so I’m calling it self-care.)
I went for a long walk with my family and we played in the sunshine.
Early this morning I read that very disturbing New York Times piece that said, among other things, that DJT didn’t know he was putting Bannon on the National Security Council. HE SIGNED AN EXECUTIVE ORDER AND HE DIDN’T KNOW WHAT IT SAID. Also apparently his staff has been literally working in the dark because they couldn’t figure out how to turn on the lights in the cabinet room.
We’ve got our work cut out for us, you guys.
Last week I wanted to give more attention to some issues impacting Indiana as well as that OTHER complete disaster of an executive order, the president’s Muslim travel ban.
Who I supported
Indiana Youth Group – creates safe spaces, provides wellness programming,and educates LGBTQ youth and the community.
Who I contacted
Indiana’s attorney general. He’s appealing a ruling that allowed same-sex parents to be listed on their child’s birth certificate. Seriously, who comes up with this shit? So I wrote his office and asked them to quit their foolishness (politely, of course).
So one of the really cool things Indiana is trying to do right now is bulldoze the inner city’s last old-growth forest. Neat, right? It’s gotten a fair amount of attention and there was even a march over the summer. (Although right now, it’s not looking good.) Currently, SB420 would protect Indiana forests by requiring that a portion of forest lands be restricted from logging. I wrote my state representatives in support of the bill and I wrote the authors of the bill to thank them.
SB 285 is attempting to restrict protests, so I wrote to my state senators and asked them to oppose it.
I called Senator Todd Young, who supported the president’s EO on immigration. (I also made a thank you call to Senator Donnelly for opposing the ban and for showing up at the protest held at our airport. Man…thank you calls are so much easier to make!)
Your defense of immigration is fucking colonialist. And not noted in this piece, but in addition to citizenship not being based on greatness, I just want to note the obvious, that we are NOT all immigrants. A bunch of people were here before us, and we slaughtered them and took their land. A bunch of other people were forced to come over here as slaves and they are still fighting systemic racism and oppression. So no.
What I did
I decluttered. Filing this one under self-care. I cleaned and organized my closet and sorted a bunch of stuff to either sell or donate. I had clothes in my closet that – let’s face it – will never, ever fit me again and were just taking up space. It felt therapeutic to get rid of shit.